On Friday I got a call from my sister. My Mum is in hospital with chest pains.
I am in Australia; she is in Prince Edward Island, which is literally on the other side of the planet. It is at least 4 flights and 40 hours of travel to get there.
All those who have left family behind in another country understand the powerlessness and fear you feel when news like this occurs. It is your worst fear realised.
What could I do? Nothing.
My Mum is receiving good medical treatment, my Dad is with her, and it is likely she will be fine after an angioplasty and prescription for cholesterol medication.
After almost a week, I finally got to talk to her on the phone today, before she undergoes the procedure that will fit a shunt in her heart valve. She is scared. I love her. I know that whatever happens, she will be ok. She is a great and beautiful spirit that will overcome whatever physical adversity occurs for her. She will always be with me, and I will always love her. That is all.
Am I worried? It’s not quite the right emotion. I suppose I am beyond worry and feel compassion and love more than anything else. I have been in many hospitals and had many procedures, and know that none are easy. They are a stark reminder of your vulnerability and fragility. It is also a good reminder of the temporary nature of life, and the eternal nature of the spirit.
I am not fighting anything; I am not praying for anything, I am simply sending love to my Mum. I am ok with what is. It does not mean I like it, it just means that I remind myself to feel love rather than fear, to feel trust rather anger. The sun is still shining and the blue sky is still achingly beautiful and endless.
And this is the greatest gift in learning the Law of Attraction: being ok with what is while holding the desire for something more. It is a place of peace.
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